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andrew still may move back to st. louis after this summer if he isn't offered a part-time job at the radio station he is interning for.
i get it and i won't be mad, but as i mentioned to him this afternoon, we've spent almost every single night together for over a year.
it will be kind of hard to handle.
i told him turtle wouldn't want to move, that he's happy here with me.
i just know myself very well. i hate talking on the phone, i hate skype, i hate facetime, i don't do any of those things. i'm just afraid of what will happen when we get too busy to communicate every day.
i will just miss evenings like this, and all we did was go to ichiban and petsmart and now i'm drinking wine and he's drinking beer and we're just hanging out in the living room.
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in other news, my baby brother graduated from high school this weekend.
i didn't cry like i expected, but i am prouder of him and love him more than any single person in my entire life. i spent saturday with him and his girlfriend, and it is always so strange to see him as an adult.
i don't know if i will ever be able to have children. i am constantly worried about dylan because i can't shelter him from the bad things in the world, or the things that hurt, and i know i'd be this insane overprotective mother because i already try to do that to dylan.
9:56 p.m. - 2014-06-02
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